Sweet surprise

Saw a movie with Mom last night. It reminded me of something I'd been thankful for and wanted to capture.

With Reece, I took a test exactly 2 weeks after the IUI. For some, that may sound like a long time. But for someone that had been doing this roller coaster ride a while, it became more wisdom and self-protection to wait until it would be a trustworthy result. We had tested so, so many times before, and we had done this exact procedure 3 times before.

This time, I didn't even realize there was a possibility until that morning in the shower. It was almost like a movie. I wasn't recording info anymore. Covered only in a towel and dripping, I ran into the other room to get my purse. Checked the calendar which confirmed that there was a chance. I trotted back to the bathroom and scrambled around in the cabinets, finding 1 lone test. Part of me felt a little silly even trying, as the doctors had told me IVF was the only way. But, nevertheless, I tested. I watched that thing and the faintest of pink lines showed. I kept looking...am I sure it's there or just imagining it?

I am so thankful for the unexpected joy that day. Not just for the blessing of the child, but even for the blessing of just being surprised. Finding out I'm pregnant unexpectedly, unplanned, unmedicated, and not premeditated. It was how so many normal, fertile women find out they are pregnant.

I can't tell you exactly why that makes me so emotional and grateful, but know that I am. Perhaps when you think for so long that something is wrong with you as a woman and weren't designed to be a mother, you start to believe it. But, tee hee, now I know how it feels for it to just happen. It's absolutely sweet, sweet.

I am so grateful to have experienced the sweet surprise of becoming pregnant. Lord, thank you, thank you, for another day.