One of those moments

Today I had one of those moments.
I kept it quiet (and I think unnoticed), but it was a sweet one.

The room was filled with discussion about Job and his so called 'friends' who associated health, wealth, and prosperity with being right with God. Contrarily, they associated pain and suffering with sin. Since Job was suffering, he MUST have done something to deserve that.

Oh how I remember when we were trying to get pregnant with Reece, I thought maybe I didn't deserve a baby because of things I had done in my past. Praise you, Lord, that you are a God of grace.

I was listening to the discussion, but for a moment, there was another sound that I just closed my eyes and listened to. It was the sweet, sweet sounds of 4 babies cooing, gurgling, grunting, and babbling that caught my ear.

I remember the first few weeks at bible study so clearly, wondering why I was put in this group with soooo many newborns and pregnant women. God had brought me to a peace about not being able to have another child...but still, it seemed like a cruel joke.

Today, I closed my eyes and listened to the sounds, the very sounds that may have left me a little bitter months ago, fill me with something so different now.

My eyes pooled with tears as I felt overwhelmed with gratefulness.

Reece asked me last night with his head tilted slightly and his nose crinkled, "How'd that baby get in your belly?"
"God put it there, sweetie", I replied. (more on that later)

Thank you, thank you, Lord, for another day.