Mixed

I've been feeling so much better.
The congestion is still major, but I will absolutely take that over nausea and headaches. I will take that ANY DAY. I've got much more energy and even my smiles are back.

But...some news this week and the past couple of weeks just aches my heart immensely. While so many women seem to be pregnant right now, I know a few that are suffering through miscarriage and loss. I have burst into tears for these women.

Why them. Why not me?
I go back 9 weeks when I had similar thoughts.

What I do know is that I'm no one special. I'm no more special, Godly, righteous, or worthy of a blessing than these women. I am definitely no more worthy.

God, please be a shelter for these families with your love and hope for eternity.
Their faith has been inspirational. Your promises are even greater.

Thank you for this little bean sprout. Know that I hold onto it tightly, preciously, and with great, great thankfulness.
My heart aches in pain for them, and it also aches with gratefulness for what You've given us. Every day right now feels a little mixed.

Thank you, Lord, for another day.